rediscovering eden
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
i am yours
dailies
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
-1:04 AM
Caught this dude while I was grinding in AT.
I don't go around hunting bots but this dude parked himself in the same room as me and was botting away.. -_-
Monday, January 28, 2008
-11:40 PM
Here's the Robe of Sky Daemons from yesterday!
Went for our 2nd Rafflesia raid today.
No Queen-eater at Ch1 so we went Ch2 to scout. OMG, AllStars and Outcasts faction were already hitting the legs at Ch2!!
It was like omgwtfbbq lag -- 4 factions in a small map spamming skills is not funny.
Nostra gave the go ahead to ks. Ks we did. Hoho.
My lineup: Cath, Ele and ETS.
Summoned everything I could to farm for petals for my squad. The Bracelet of 3 Kings (loaned from bank) came in handy too. Went to hit the Torso and Egg too. Thank god really, for the petal buff.
Before we knew it, Torso died and everyone went for the Egg. Spammed everything I could. Grateful that the Egg doesn't seem to have any of those annoying (and deadly) AOEs.
We won.
MWAHAHAHA.
Despair from my squad got all the loots. LE BLANC for scout (WTH? :D) and an elite rifle. Male scout looks just so hot in it!!!
Screenies coming soon! :x
Looks like this is the way new raids will be like... FFA.
Hello, lvl 100 armors! :)
Sunday, January 27, 2008
-11:59 PM
Defeated Rafflesia tonight. Finally!!!
It was a combined raid with EMINENCE faction after our weekly CW. Great turnout from both sides :)
Took slightly over 2 hours -- I was there only at the end, to help kill the EGG. Hehe.
Will put up some pics later, of our other attempts as I couldn't get any nice ones this round.
Lootlist: Robe of Sky Daemon (lvl 100 robe / 27 DR), Elite Robe of Pluto, Elite Calabrone
Oh, just formed a new Rafflesia pact with EMINENCE... gonna alternate loots for each flower we kill. They get all the loots this round.
Hope we get something fantazztic next Rafflesia!! :)
SCREENIES:
Before the raid...
Raid starts!!
That crazy killer AOE!
The smelly flower boss D:
-1:42 AM
Got totally wiped by this haxing skull nightmare... T_T
This is my 1st time at Secret Temple and don't think I'm inclined to go back anytime soon!
Things were going smooth at 1st... until Ravyns started appearing and PS-ing us! PAINFUL MAN!! Then lv 100 Dilos Lantens (sp) and Treasure Golems spawned too.
Got our asses handed back to us. ~_~
Saturday, January 26, 2008
-11:39 PM
I WISH...
I didn't miss you so much.
I cried less when I think back about us.
I could forget your smell, your touch.
I stopped trying to keep in touch.
I can think of a happy future without you in it.
I didn't see those tears in your eyes while we ate.
I stopped hoping that you would hold my hand like you used to.
I wasn't the one who held out my arms for a hug just now, but you.
You wouldn't let me go.
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
-2:22 AM
On my way to afk in AT when I saw this FLOATING ORE.
-_-
Thursday, January 17, 2008
-9:20 AM
Think I'm dying soon.
Still having the rashes. Now got fever too. Developed a bad cough as well. My throat feels like it's burning... Head-spinning @_@
Felt really weak. Stayed in bed the whole of yesterday already but just didn't get better. Will drag myself to the doc's later...
Thought this week home will let me take a break from it all and hopefully forget about him. Was hoping to just focus on GE, my faction stuff and all... and this has to happen.
Really sucks to be so sick AND alone. Don't really wanna let him know how sick I was too.
EMO.
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
-10:07 PM
Don't know what's happening... Found red, ugly red spots or rashes whatever all over my body!!!!
Am I having an allergic reaction to the painkillers?!
Gahhhhh~~ I look alien!
Starting to feel a bit feverish too.
T_________________T
-12:58 AM
Just had my wisdom tooth extracted earlier on Mon (14 Jan).
The 1 hour long process itself was pretty much painless... God bless the person who invented anthestic! Lol.
For those who might be interested in how the extraction went, there was a fair bit of drilling involved! Which in itself, is very disturbing because you can feel the vibrations but not the pain. The right side of my mouth was totally numb! Even my tongue was numb! Alien stuff!!
After the tooth was removed, the dentist went on to stitch up the gums... Almost fainted when I saw him waving a small (but very sharp-looking) needle in my face! T.T
Anyway, before I knew it, it's all over. I looked at that cute little bloodied tooth in a metal tray and wondered for a while if I should request to bring it home as a souvenir... o.O In the end, I didn't. Too freaky.
1 week MC.
Thursday, January 10, 2008
-11:41 PM
Caught this bot at 2nd floor of Ancient Territory. Oric from EMINENCE Faction.
*tsk tsk*
After that message came up, he promptly dc-ed. Is that how they send them to the rat prison? Or the bot's escape tactic? Anyway, the last I checked, he is still offline which I hope that justice has been served. :)
-10:02 PM
Yep. We are back in business. :)
-9:45 AM
Surprised to get an early sms from SapphireX (well, I duno how I should address him now.. whatever)
It's about the Feb poll for MyBellem Box's special item. And my my, things are getting better this year.
The clear winner was MSP which I voted for with loads of enthusiasm. Lol.
Can make my dream Pizarro with that if my faction auction fails. Not to forget the lv 92 elite recipes (Steel series) that will be available when Bahamars Swamp is released in March.
OMG la!!! MSP from MyBellem Box is a GODSEND!!
Sunday, January 6, 2008
-10:22 PM
My 1st time in Poison Yard!! :D
Didn't managed to take much screenies cos we are so busy running around and trying to stay alive! LOL.
Basically, the aim of this pseudo-instanced raid is to kill everyone else and the bosses too! Lv 84 elites await the triumphant!
3 bosses in total : 2 x Diablo and 1 Chimera!
Saturday, January 5, 2008
-2:01 AM
Don't know what came over me. Just felt so alone and sad today.
As usual, I just had to /profile him... to see if he's online. Pathetic isn't it?
Just not used to his absence. Seeing him in the game yet not able to speak to him... it hurts.
Not sure why, but was particularly emo today. And I actually pm-ed him ingame to tell him about how I missed him.
No replies. Which is good I guess. Sigh.
Wednesday, January 2, 2008
-8:00 PM
A silly screenshot that I submitted for the latest forum quest. But the message... I really mean it. :)
Finally succumbed to the past 3 weeks of stress and neglect. Doctor says it's some gastric problem and gave me 2 days MC. The pain was unbearable but I guessed this should be a wake-up call.
It's not that I really starved myself. I just can't eat.
Met up with him ingame last night to return each other stuff. Got back my Cath. But I don't know if I will ever use her again.
Asked him to delete me off his buddy list and MSN too. He refused. I don't know what he's trying to achieve by wanting me to stay floating around in his life.
But I do know what I need and how I'm going to get it -- I need to forget and put this pain behind me. And I need to erase every pixel of him out of my life.
During this period, I realised there are other people who care for me afterall. Friends whom I hardly chat with in MSN sent me their regards and asked what happened. Really appreciate that.
I will get better and come out stronger. This shall be my New Year resolution. :)